I'm Natalie, 18.
USC Trojan ✌
I'm a pretty cool cat I suppose.
So I get drunk/high whatever. A temporary fix to make myself happy.
It’s not even that fun. But it just contributes to my attempt at forgetting the things I’m discontent with at the moment.
The main thing is feeling like I don’t have a single constant in my life I feel close enough to who will always be there for me. I might be needy, but I guess that’s what you get when you deny needing anything or anybody for your entire life.
I’m not the type of girl to whine about not having a significant other. I don’t do that, but I whine about it to myself. It’s not that I want a guy to have a guy, but rather I just want a best friend. I’d be perfectly happy if we weren’t even romantically involved, but it just seems that all my best friends have a romantic relationship that will always come first. I suppose it’s understandable but it’s fucking hard. It’s fucking hard as fuck.
It just gets really lonely that’s all. Those times when everyone goes to skype or to hang out with their significant other, and I’m just stuck here to think about the fact that I fail at romantic relationships because I’m picky/attract douche-y guys/too afraid to pursue anyone I like. Nobody will ever get it. I just don’t want to be that whine-y single girl, but that’s exactly how I feel sometimes.
People who cannot be without a significant other for longer than a week, and are therefore constantly in a relationship. Friends to them are not important, but rather filler during days being single and people to run to go complain about the last significant other. But when in a relationship, friends mean shit to them.
Mark Twain (via planestrainsnpages)
F. Scott Fitzgerald